My Son

 Addison James, 2 days old

 A few seconds after he was born!!

 Addison James

 Daddy and Addison

Born May 16 @ 8:05 a.m.

8 lbs 6 ozs and 21.5 inches long

and he has a head full of black hair!

im so in love with him!

Currently Listening Back to Basics By Christina Aguilera see related

I'm currently over stressed.

I need a vacation.

Mood =

Boy's confuse me.

Why do they just beat around the bush about everything?

Seriously i am tired.

Relationships

Sometimes its so hard to realize when the time is right to move forward.

If someone made you so happy at one point in your life, hurt you more than you could ever imagine, what makes you think its okay to feel that happy again? is it even right to?

i guess i am saying is i am scared to feel that again. to feel that love and warmth from another person. im scared to be broken, and i dont want to pick up the pieces again. i dont want to worry about if my heart is going to be torn from my chest..

maybe i am being paraniod, maybe not, who knows. im just confused right now.

Currently Listening Thrill Seeker By August Burns Red see related

it feels like alot of my friends are getting married and moving forward in their lives.

i feel a little sad.

i seriously dont think i could go to a wedding.

i would lose it.

i took that step. and then had to take a GIGANTIC step backwards.

man, life is a bitch, basically.

please dont take this wrong, i am so happy for my friends that are taking that step, i wish them the best of luck now and in the future! its awesome to find that person you want to spend the rest of your life with!! believe me, i know. . . . . .

i guess i still miss being the wifey a little. . . .

.lame.